This us and our so called life

Just finished reading the new harry potter last tuesday or wednesday!!!..finally after about one and a half year of waiting..i finished it in 3days?..what to do until the next one come out?..Arghhh!!!...I will not discuss the contents of the book here..in case other people hasn`t read it...but very interesting..and mind twisting...work..as usual..this week has been very boring..not much to do...there are times when lots to do...but this week has been unusually relax...friends?...still trying to keep up with their latest news...and one of my best friends flew to japan back..last monday...for 3and a half month? for kensyu...sabishi ku naru ne...then heard about a friend who lost her dad..one of my best friends too...i hope she's being strong...to face this situation..al fatihah to her dad...be strong girl...me???.....what about me?...

actually am feeling stronger..and happier...even my appetite has come back...i ate a lot this week..believe it or not!...not that i don't eat before...obviously..but a lot of things happened that made me loose my appetite..just thinking about life..and decisions..am i making the right decision..or not?...welll..after a lot of thinking..all the pros and contras..i made the decision to stand firm on my decision before...looks like i'm babbling here right...but to the person involved..you know who you are...and please accept my decision...i've thought it through ...do not said things as if i don't know what i'm talking about...i think patience has its limit...the reasons that make me do this are important to me..but may be not so important to other people...my decisions may be acceptable to some..and some may think that i am making such stupid,hurried decision...i've heard enough of only words...in the end..it were all only words...and excuses...and that only make me loose my trust to you...all these things that happened to us..are between us..so why and why..do you have to try and drag other people in too?..quit disturbing my family and friends...you can try to persuade them all you want..but in the end the decision is up to me...i know i sound really harsh here..but sometimes..you have to act this way..to make them really hear what you wanna say...i'm happy with my decision..and feel somehow a really great relief..after it is over...my head is clearer...and lighter...to those who don't understand what i'm talking about here..just bear with me..ok?thanks to all the people who tried to understand me..and my decisions..because somehow i think...i've done waiting and repeating the same mistake over and over..i learned my mistakes and i am trying to correct it myself...with the support of some other people..my life has to go on...and i'm ready..