This us and our so called life

I was tossing around in my bed trying to get some sleep last night,when suddenly a thought cross my mind..what if this night is my last night breathing in this world,or what if suddenly tomorrow i found out that i have a brain tumor and only have 3 months to live?then i remember this one movie i saw with my boyfriend "My life without me" i think..the one with sarah polley in it..you know..the one who stars in dawn of the dead...and i thought what are the things that i would do if i only have 3months to live....
1. call my parents everyday and tell them how much i love them..asking them to forgive me for all the bad things i've done since i was born..that bring grieve to them ..
2.pray hard to god to forgive me for all of the sins that i've done since i was born..may i be one of the people who can go to heaven
3.tell my boyfriend how much i love him,how much he means to me,and ask him to forgive me for all the things that i've done that had made him feel hurt..
4.find someone..a girl who is prettier,a good cook,sweet,can take care of my boyfriend,and can be a better wife than me...(this is the hardest and a risky thing to do..cause if i found her to soon my boyfriend will forget me before i'm dead..and i'll die broken hearted..)
5.to give all the best things that i ever have to my little sister and brothers..
6.to call all my friends and have tea or spend sometime with them..also,tell them how much they affect my life..and how glad i am to have them as friends
7.to do a little goodness to the world,everyday as much as i can do..
8.to read all the books that i wanted to read
9.to forgive all the people who have made me unhappy..
10.to eat all the food that i wanted to eat without worrying that i'll be fat..i'm gonna be dead anyway..
11.make a video of myself so that if anyone wants to remember me..they'll remember me alive,and happy..not cold and dead...
12.drive in my own car..nissan march..if i can afford it,that is...

things like this actually make me realize that life is too short..you can never know if you might loose someone you love tomorrow,or you might be gone from this world..make best of the time you have..never wait too long to tell someone how much you love them..how much you wanted to be with them..never wait too long..finish all the things you want to do today..never say there will be tomorrow..because you don't know if tomorrow will come..
goshhh..this topic is sad..i guess i better end it right here..before i start to cry..